Here Comes the SUN!

I am pretty sure that this picture was taken yesterday.

Wasn't it just yesterday when we picked this little guy up from the hospital.

You can tell me it wasn't but I am pretty sure I won't believe you.

I remember the first time I saw his face.

The cheeks that seemed to never end.

You know that song, "This is the song that never ends...It just goes on and on my friends".

Well, truly, that song came to mind when I saw Sunshine for the first time but with a few different words.

My head played it something like this, "These are the cheeks that never end...they just go on and on my friends".

Yeppers, I am pretty sure that it was just yesterday that we picked this sick little boy up from the hospital and began to nurse him back to health.

I'm pretty sure that it was just yesterday that we began what is now routine in my life...taking sunshine to doctors and hospitals and therapists and wherever they suggested that might help him.

It was yesterday I swear it's true. At least that is what my heart is telling me at the moment.

I am quite sure that it was yesterday when we he laughed and laughed at nothing at all.

And he made us happy.

Happy that he did not have to know that at the same time he was laughing we were crying for the fact that we did not know if any second he could be taken and given to the very mom who had not taken care of him and his siblings.

If at any moment he could be introduced to a life where his laughter was stripped away and replaced with fear and lifelessness.

Wasn't it yesterday that we spent hours each day just trying to get him to lift his head and look around.

In my heart it feels like yesterday.

In my heart I am sure that at any second I will hear him cry and realize that he needs a bottle again.

My heart seems to still believe that simply a few days ago we were enamored at how a child who could not sit up or put his hands together or babble or move could take our hearts in his hands with the sound of his giggle.

Wasn't it yesterday that he learned to sit up.

No matter what my mind tells my heart I swear to you I took this photo yesterday.

I am pretty sure it was just yesterday that I left him unsupervised for one minute and came back to find he had eaten the better part of my Big Mac.

And it was yesterday we fought with our lives to keep the child that our hearts knew was ours all along.

Yesterday we lived with fear that we would be without him for even one day.

But today.....

Today is different.

Today we turned around....

And he was 5.

And we all know what 5 means......

Kindergarten!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, the boy that we fought for, and that taught our hearts how to love unselfishly, who taught us how it feels to be HELD by God, who we feared would one day be taken....

That boy, that VERY boy.....

is heading off to all day kindergarten...

and his mommy is letting him go.

I guess it starts here...this process of letting him go physically.

I hope that the next years don't fly by quite as quickly as the first 5 did.

But either way...this one...this little guy has added more to our lives than we knew was possible.

He is our SUNSHINE, our JOY.

And tomorrow we let him fly off to spread his joy a little further.

And we will miss the socks off of him.

But we can't wait to see what the world holds for this special little boy.

If he can change the hearts of so many in just 5 years then this world better watch out.

Here comes the SUNSHINE!!!!!

(I will miss you baby...and I am not done fighting for you...that will NEVER END!)

-Mommy

And here is the nudge...God adopted us. He fought for us. He suffered for us and takes joy in us. He loves us with a love that makes my love for my sunshine look like hatred. Now that is something so amazing I truly can't imagine it. How about you? Can you imagine that kind of love? It's a blow your socks off love!!!